Autumn, the year's last, loveliest smile.

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 00:12:55 GMT

Life is not fair. People who don't appreciate what they have are the ones who get to keep it. Why are they that lucky?

I'm not perfect, but I do feel that I've put out a lot of good into the world, how come I can't have this one thing?

Staying in bed for years sound really really good right now.

And to add insult to injury? No one else seems to care. If I'm not happy, they just don't bother with me.

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 18:18:22 GMT

Happy New Year everyone :)

I've really gotta start posting more :-/

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 06:06:06 GMT

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night...

Wow

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 23:34:22 GMT

I have finally have power back. The ice storm here was ridiculous and it got very very cold :( Today was day 5 without power...it came back at 2 this afternoon. There are still quite a few towns without power and they won't be getting it back anytime soon.

And tonite? A snowstorm is coming...

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 10:50:15 GMT

Those I thought would remember - didn't.
Those I thought wouldn't remember - did.

It was kind of an interesting day.

Really long medical rambling

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 01:38:07 GMT

Wake up Wednesday morning with a slinky looking thingy in my vision that changes colors and moves around. Interesting.

So I head to the ER cause that's kinda freaky and it disappears in the waiting room. Figure that's the end of it right? Oh, no! I then get dizzy, clammy, pale, and nauseous. So I go back to meet the doctor. I walk out with a prescription for the dizziness and this for a diagnosis: it could have been a seizure, it could have been a migraine, or it could be your medication. I don't want to give you a CT scan and expose you to radiation if I don't need to (?!?!?!), so follow up with a neurologist and/or an opthamologist if you don't feel better.

Okay, what? You a) have NO idea what's wrong with me b) are sending me away with a generic feel-better pill in hopes it helps and c) passing me off to someone else

Great.

Thursday morning. Feeling NO better. Can only stop the spinning by laying completely horizontal. Call my neurologist. He wants to know why the guy didn't give me a CT scan. Repeat of explanation above. Silence. Yeah, that's what I thought too. He wasn't able to fit me in that day, but thought I should go back to the ER since I wasn't any better. So I go to a DIFFERENT ER this time. (I feel like I'm hospital shopping in an ER/House episode :-P)

This guy tells me I have benign positional vertigo. Woohoo! Diagnosis! Gives me Valium since you can do nothing about it. Not so woohoo. But should be gone in 5-7 days.

Cue day 6. Follow-up appointment with neurologist. Still dizzy, still nauseous. Any more slinkys? Nope. Any vomiting? Nope. Walk this line, move this way, twist your head, touch your nose, etc, etc, etc. You don't have vertigo! *sigh*

According to him I had a Basilar Migraine. Some of the symptoms are
Ataxia (walking like I'm drunk) - check
Vertigo (spinning like the teacups at Disney) - check
Visual symptoms (slinky!) - check
Dysarthria (talking like I'm drunk too) - check

So yeah. 3 doctors, 3 diagnoses. Great. Went for that CAT scan today to rule out a stroke since I have way too many risk factors due to my medical history. Guess we see what happens from there. Gonna try work for the first time tomorrow. It's been a solid week since I've been upright. Do you know how exhausting it is to be spinning?? I had no idea...

And how was YOUR week?

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:52:39 GMT

Seizures?! Really?! I went in for increased tics and migraines and now I'm told I'm having seizures...

How...?

What...?

When...?

Wow...just...wow.

I don't even know how to handle this...

First Week From Hell

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 21:02:24 GMT

Day 1...DONE.

Be up at the crack of dawn to meet a lil one - check
Drive over an hour to get there - check
Only stay for a few minutes because they "want to go to the beach" - check
Head to school to put room together - check
Drop bookcase full of books right on the floor - check
Run over my own foot and cause bleeding and pain - check
Hurt the shoulder I'm going to physical therapy for - check
Take a shower and feel like a new person - check

It's been a loooooooooooong day. My Tourette's is really bad today and my jaw is killing me. I think it may be time for a muscle relaxer...I hate doing that.

I'm already exhausted and in pain...how am I going to make it for the next few days? :(

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Tue, 29 Jul 2008 20:12:56 GMT

Wooooooooooooooo!!

New Car!!!

Woooooooooooooo!!

...is it weird that I'm sad to give up my other car? :(

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 14:41:55 GMT

Wow, lots of movie watching this weekend! We went to see Wall-E...so cute! One of the cutest movies I've seen in a long time. Will definitely be watching that one again.

Also went to see Hancock. Since I hadn't seen previews for it (I know, what rock have I been living under?), I had no expectations for it. I didn't even know what it was about. It wasn't bad...though it didn't seem very well thought out at the end. Can't say much more without giving it away, but yeah.

On another note, watching Anthony Bourdain. *shudder* My face will be permanently stuck like this long after it ends...

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 21:56:51 GMT

Wow, it's been awhile since I've posted!

Year is finally over. The kids last day was Monday, mine was on Tuesday. I got paid to sit around on my ass all day and do noting....literally. They had no meetings or busy work for us to do, so we sat around playing games. I would have killed for that much free time during the year! I get to go in tomorrow to see a preschooler and start thinking about room set-up for next year. I haven't heard anything about the BASE program proposal yet, but as I've been told, "we're going to do it anyway." OK!

As far as the Early Intervention job, I met with my team leader on Friday and got an idea of the kiddos on my case load. I start meeting them on Wednesday - this will be interesting! I've got a lot of reading and research to do before then. I shouldn't be so intimidated by little ones! For some reason, I'm more nervous about this step than working in the school...the parents maybe? Who knows, I'm sure I'll be fine once I start. The staff seems great and supportive, so that's definitely a plus.

Been dealing with some things on my own lately. To those that have tried, I'm sorry I've been so distant. It's not something I really want to bring up or talk about, just know I'm a little...off, but I'm hoping it'll pass soon. Expect me to be a bit distant, but that doesn't mean I don't want to talk :)

WooHoo!

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Thu, 15 May 2008 01:11:20 GMT

GO WHITNEY!! :)

It's about time!

New job?

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:47:24 GMT

I just applied for a job! A per diem job, but still.

I was thisclose to closing the browser cause I just couldn't find any per diem jobs. Last one I clicked on...per diem pediatric occupational therapist. It couldn't get any more perfect! They want someone with experience with ASD - I'm applying for an ASD graduate certificate and writing a program proposal for a program. 25% of my caseload has ASD. Perfect!

Now everyone cross your fingers for me. I don't want to get my hopes up, but I really want this.

Edward and Bella

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 00:27:23 GMT

Twilight finished.
New Moon finished.
Eclipse finished.

Do I really have to wait until August for the next one?!

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:12:29 GMT

I just finished Twilight. I read about a million pages tonite. Absolutely loved it. Heading to the bookstore tomorrow for the sequel *hop*

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 22:54:39 GMT

Ugh. I just can't do this anymore. I fell asleep in the doctor's office waiting for the doctor. I was VERY tempted to come home after the doctor and sleep. Not that it helps, but I just couldn't make myself move. I told him I'm falling asleep at the wheel, falling asleep while TREATING KIDS, falling asleep constantly. I'm going for a sleep study on Monday, again, so hopefully something comes out of it.

I'm finally reading Twilight. I just started it on Tuesday - I'm about 1/3 of the way through - and I LOVE IT. I didn't think I'd find it so interesting, but it's great! I think I might know some vampires *grin* Some people I know are toooo like Edward hehe

Life...

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 23:06:17 GMT

I'm having one of those "life sucks" moments. I'm not happy and nothing is fixing it. I can't distract myself. I've gone for drives to clear my head and that made it worse, for many reasons. I tried working out to distract me and I'm too sick to. I tried to read a book and wound up daydreaming instead. People haven't been around to talk to at the time I'm ready to (which isn't often at all).

Sometimes, people just make it worse. Bah..I'm lost.

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 03:40:25 GMT

I'm very upfront about my Tourette's Syndrome. It's not like I say, Hi, I'm Casey and I have Tourette's - I'm not my own support group. But after I get to know someone a little, I don't want them to feel uncomfortable if I tic in front of them or (and this has happened), I roll my eyes at a very unfortunate time. They usually are a little taken aback, but it makes things easier later on.

Well, I met a new co-worker a few days ago. After we've been talking a few days, I let them know, hey, I have Tourette's - don't take any eye rolling, etc. personally. They said, and I quote, "No, you don't."

*blink*

Really?

I've been living with this diagnosis for 16 years, I am SO GLAD to find out it's been wrong! *rolls eyes INTENTIONALLY*

Apparently because I don't shout swear words all the time and I have learned to "control" the motor/vocal tics that I have...I can't have Tourette's. Well, it's a damn good thing SHE wasn't my neurologist at the time.

Less than 15% of people with Tourette's have coprolalia (the "use of socially-inappropriate words or phrases"). According to this person...the other 85% of us are shit out of luck. No Tourette's for us.

I understand not knowing everything about Tourette's, I really do. It's not a common thing and a lot of people ONLY know about the coprolalia. However, if I tell you I have it - trust me? Why would I lie about that? It's not like a pony and everyone wishes they have it. It's a neurological disorder. Bah.

Books read in 2008

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Sun, 17 Feb 2008 18:15:15 GMT

I needed to put this somewhere ...

Finished:
In Search of Eden - Linda Nichols
Physik - Angie Sage
Lisey's Story - Stephen King*
Inkheart - Cornelia Funke
Alchemyst - Michael Scott*
Twilight - Stephenie Meyer
New Moon - Stephenie Meyer
Eclipse - Stephenie Meyer
The Girl Who Stopped Swimming - Joshilyn Jackson *
The Wizard Heir - Cinda Chima
The Host - Stephenie Meyer
The Naming - Allison Croggon
Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyer
Children of the Night - Dan Simmons *
Dragon Song - Anne McCaffrey *

...I swear there's more...

In Progress:
Witches' Brew - Terry Brooks *
The Stolen Child - Keith Donohue
James Potter and the Hall of Elder's Crossing - G. Norman Lippertt

updated August 19, 2008

Courtesy of American Idol

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 02:22:40 GMT

The song which I will be singing for weeks now...

Leave me alone now,
Leave me alone.
Leave me alone now,
Leave me alone.

Lather, Rinse, Repeat.

He put a "you" at the beginning, but I like this version better :)

I'm tired of being alone...so hurry up and get here...

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 23:38:41 GMT

Between listening to "My Stupid Mouth" and "1983"...I remembered how much I love John Mayer's songs :)

And...Heath Ledger?? Dead?? I didn't expect this. Just...wow...

SNOW!

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 19:46:29 GMT

January Nor'easter! Snow day! I love working in a school :)

Merry Christmas!

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Tue, 25 Dec 2007 20:16:24 GMT

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and all that jazz :)

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Mon, 10 Dec 2007 23:43:40 GMT

So, I went Friday to see the Golden Compass. It was GREAT.

They did a fair job of sticking to the book, but I feel like the movie sequels (yes, they better make them!) didn't get enough set up. They definitely left it open for a 2nd movie, but none of the people were introduced. And what the HELL happened to the END??? That would have been nice to see. Putting that in the second movie will be...interesting.

I didn't feel like Nicole Kidman had enough subtlety as the book Mrs. Coulter. She just seemed purely devious and not enough charm for me. I didn't see the "adoration" that Lyra should have with her. And her daemon was just plain creepy looking :) I did, however, LOVE Dakota Blue Richards as Lyra. I felt she had a great mix of that tomboyish/mischievous nature that I get from Lyra. Pan was just adorable and their interaction was exactly as I had pictured.

I found the way they presented the alethiometer and Lyra's reading it to be...weird. I'm not sure how I feel about it. She didn't look as intense as I expected and the "diving into" it gave me a less magical feeling than the book. I guess it would be a difficult task to figure out how to show that.

There was a lot about the bears that struck me as odd. Changing Iofur's name? Changing why Iorek was outcasted? I don't understand the point of it all. I guess Iofur and Iorek could sound too much alike, but I would give us moviegoers a little more credit than that.

All in all, I'm glad I went to see it and I would gladly go watch it a second time! :)

Happy Thanksgiving!

kaysylynn@gmail.com — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 00:08:52 GMT

So, we celebrated Thanksgiving yesterday since my father and brother both worked today. J and B came over and brought the twins, T and Z. They're 4 today and so damn cute :)

Highlight of the day? Playing Pictionary at the table in which J and A were completely drunk. J reads his card, draws the picture, A guesses what J is drawing (manatee???? how on earth?).

"We did it! Drunk people CAN play!"
"Sorry guys, you don't get any points"
"WHAT? Why not?"
"The word isn't manatee...it's matinee."

....so can drunk people play Pictionary? Not last night they couldn't *grin*